Hail Hitler...!

Semalam budak kenit 2 org tu mengigau teruk. Aish gelak2 cakap "Ek, EK maak ek.." yg si Izz plak bercakap pasal katun apa ntah siap tendang2 aku lagi. Aku suspek ni mesti penyakit si Iwan turun kat anak aku ni... Rasanya Iwan la Raja Mengigau ni. Kalau aku ceta kat blog aku ni abih la saham ko Wan... jgn lepas ni ko debush aku cukup hehehe... Iwan ni kalau mengigau dahsat wooo....siap boleh lawan2 cakap lagi tu... Macam org menurun. Kita org selalu cakap kalau bole mintak no. ekor kan best! Ada 2 insiden yg aku ingat ssgt. Satu yang Hail Hitler! dan yg satu lagi main tembak2 ala2 koboi tu. Hmmm... yg Hail Hitler tu masa tu Iwan kecik2 lagi kot belum akil baligh lagi la time tu. Jadi tak la malu sangat ek?Dia tido lepas tu bangun jalan depan kita org, ambik kerusi, bukak seluar, naik atas kerusi, angkat tangan macam askar jarman salute tu and 'pancut' dari atas kerusi tu. Lepas tu dia turun kerusi, pakai balik seluar terus selamber je sambung tido. Yang aksi koboi tu, kita org tgh tgk TV, dia biasala tgh tido baru la bole mengigau kan... So tiba2 dia melompat bangun dari dari tido buat aksyen macam koboi pegang pistol tu and "Peng!Pepeng!" kat kita org lps tu dia lari p amek kusyen besar n nyorok belakang kusyen tu n main tembak2 sejibik macam si Labu Labi mengigau tu. After a few shots terus dia baring kat kusyen tu n sambung tido balik.... Memang pelik betul.... Nasib baik da tua2 ni tak der ngigau lagi ek Wan.... tido mati sebab penat sangat keje. Ke ada lagi cuma aku jer yg tak tau.....? Huhuhu... Sori ye Wan pecah tembelang ko.....

Energy Vampires

Went to Spotlight http://spotlight.com.au/ in Queanbeyan last Monday with Marion. Izz n Aish tagged along. Kye and Natalya stayed at home with Craig as it was a public holiday - The Queen's Birthday. Nothing much to see during the holiday. They only had a fireworks show on Sunday nite and that was it. I asked Marion "So what happens during the Queen's Birthday?" "Uh... long weekends...?" Marion said they don't feel any allegiance towards the Queen. Hmmm... Anyway, Spotlight is a one stop shop for all your fabric, craft and home interiors supply. For me it's heaven. I went there to get supplies for Izz n Aish's upcoming birthday bash. Hohoho... big mistake! I end up buying other stuff too! A sushi maker and something that I've been looking for ages - a cupcake stand! Yeay! Finally! Isn't it gorgeous? Got him a Pinata', some party games, party favors, birthday banner, some transport themed tablecloths and decorations. I just love this place. Marion sent us home. That night, Rosh called from Jakarta. He said not to call him as his HP has no coverage in Indonesia. Right now he was calling me using a public phone. How thick did he think I am? As if Indonesia is on another planet!?? He asked about the kids and then said he got to go and get ready for dinner that nite. Ok, that was surreal.... I think the conversation lasted less than 2 minutes. I've heard Izz burped longer than that. Whatever.... The next day we went to Westfield Belconnen to go to Toys R Us. Izz wanted a Magnetix Spiderman3 Vehicle toy. Description - Be the Amazing Spider-Man - slip into the form of a timeless superhero with superhuman strength.Build your own magnetic hero and build him a vehicle to match. He saw the advertisement on TV and wanted one. I think it's an educational toy so I agreed to get him one. Bought something for Aish too. It's a Fisher-Price set of Learning Keys. That'll keep him busy in the aircraft on the way back home to Malaysia. I still feel my emotions is dragging me down. Although the atmosphere is calmer when he is away but the storm is still raging inside my heart. I don't know whether it's because I'm in denial (I still love him despite all the protest, curse and swearing) or because of my pent-up feelings. Or maybe it's just a simple case of loneliness. My brain is a mosh pit. The longer I stay here the more demented I'll be. I still burst into tears for no apparent reasons especially if I'm not doing anything. All these negative thoughts keep flooding my brain. I feel like I've lost a part of my soul and I can't retrieve it back no matter what I do. It's like there's a black hole right at the core of my being and it's sucking away all my energy. I can't feel happiness or joy. The only thing that I can do right now is to keep everything at bay, but I don't know how long I can keep it there. Ya Allah, show me mercy and give me strength. I don't want to end up being bitter and full of hatred. I don't want to end up sad and alone.... Dum spiro, spero (While I breathe, I hope - Cicero) Today I went to Westfield Woden with Ana. There was supposed to be a Mid Year sale at Big W but it was just a normal sale. Everything was marked down by AUD1-2 only. What a let down. Went to Angus & Coote Bookstore. Saw this book Positive Energy by Judith Orloff. The excerpt on the back cover of the book drew me. How do you know if you’ve encountered an energy vampire? “The tip-off is that even after a brief contact you leave feeling worse, but he or she seems more alive.” This is a different experience than just having “bad chemistry” with another person and not enjoying the interaction. When an energy vampire is present, you’ll feel depleted of energy and vitality afterwards.The ideas Dr. Orloff presents about energy vampires intrigues me, now I know why I feel drained most of the days... I've been living with a vampire.... Energy Vampire #1 is the Sob Sister. This person is a whiner, a perpetual victim, who loves a captive audience and can talk for hours about his problems. If you offer a solution, he gives a “Yes, but” answer that gives an excuse for why your solution won’t work in his case. Dr. Orloff says, “You might find yourself listening for hours, hearing the same complaints over and over. He ends up renewed. You’re exhausted.” Energy Vampire #2 is the Blamer. This person makes you feel guilty, berates you, and casts negativity into your energy field. He’s more overtly angry than the Sob Sister, and he uses accusation to drain you. Dr. Orloff says, “You walk away feeling knifed, that you haven’t lived up to expectations, are somehow defective.” One of the statements a Blamer might make is “If it weren’t for you, we wouldn’t be in this mess” or “It’s your fault that I’m on drugs.” It takes agility and planning to deflect a blamer’s tactics. Energy Vampire #3 is the Constant Talker or Joke-Teller. This person always demands center stage and has absolutely no interest in what you’re feeling. At first, he (or she) might seem entertaining, but you soon begin to fade after non-stop stories, jokes, and comments, and the incessant self-focus. According to Dr. Orloff, these energy vampires “grind our energy field down like a relentless yippy Chihuahua who badly needs a walk.” It’s impossible to sneak a word in edge-wise, and they love to trap you in conversation where it’s hard to break away. Energy Vampire #4 is the Fixer-Upper. There are two types. The second type of fixer-upper is, according to Dr. Orloff, “someone who you perceive needs an overhaul, and you take him on as a project.” What you don’t realize is that he isn’t really interested in changing. You may even put your life on hold to help him “realize his potential,” but in spite of all your efforts, it never happens. Ultimately, it’s up to you to set your priorities and then take the appropriate action to keep focused on your life goals and values. And that means protecting yourself from energy vampires so that you can have the energy you need to thrive. I prefer to put a stake to his heart. That will solve all of my problems. Wishful thinking Yani....

Tekak Al Buaya...

Kan aku dah kata... berat aku turun balik. Sekarang berat aku 44kg balik. Hmmm... rasanya biar je la dulu, balik nanti mungkin boleh naik balik kot. Takut naik secara janjang geometri je kang... susah pulak, hahaha. Cakap pasal makan ni, memang aku suka makan. Sapa yang tak suka makan ek..? Yang anorexsia tu aku tak paham laa... disease of the privilaged. Mungkin the best remedy is to send them to Dafur ke, Somalia ke... tempat yang org memang kebuluran sebab tak de benda nak makan, baru dia org nak sedar diri kot. Tapi tak tau la kan sebab from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia -Anorexia nervosa is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes an eating disorder characterized by low body weight and body image distortion with an obsessive fear of gaining weight. Individuals with anorexia often control body weight by voluntary starvation, purging, vomiting, excessive exercise, or other weight control measures, such as diet pills or diuretic drugs. It primarily affects adolescent females in the Western world. Anorexia nervosa is a complex condition, involving psychological, neurobiological, and sociological components. So susah nak cakap pasal benda ni sebab kita tak kena kan. Anyway, coming back to the topic kali ni aku nak ceta pasal one of my passion iaitu makan. Jangan terkejut yea. Family aku ni ada satu jenis genetic disorder. Almost all anak2 Pak Cik Tapa ni masa kecik2 (ada yg sampai sekarang ada lagi penyakit ni... huhuhu) kalau makan luar mesti kena order at least 2 jenis dish sorang. Andi je kot yg aku rasa tak kena 'penyakit' ni. Kalau tengok kita orang satu family makan kat kedai makan takut ooo.... penuh sepenuh-penuhnya meja tu. Apa taknya, kita anak beranak je dah 10 orang. Sekarang ni lagi la panjang meja tu sebab Ira ngan Andi dah kawin. Aku dulu kalau order mesti satu berat (nasi) dan satu ringan (mee/sup/sate/udang goreng etc) favourite combination - nasi daging merah n sup ekor/mee bandung/mee hailam/tom yam campur. Air lak air limau ais/longan/ABC Special/mata kucing/kelapa. Sate kalau yg sedap tu aku boleh tibai sampai 40 cucuk sorang2. Bilah yg kudut tu pun bole tahan, dulu suka sangat nasi pattaya ngan claypot noodle. Idek boleh telan roti canai sampai 8 keping sekali jalan. Uki apa2 yg ada ayam, jadik. Last sekali taun lepas, kita org makan kat Nando's dia lanyak 1 1/4 chicken sorang2 dia jer, tu tak masuk side dishes lagi tu, sampai dianugerahkan title "Uki the Chicken Slayer". Kalau dia lalu depan ayam mesti ayam tu lari sebab dia ada aura Chicken Slayer tu... hahaha. Acik jangan cakap la... sume jalan... Takpe acik, time bole makan makan ek, nanti dah sakit baru menyesal kan... Iwan tu cerewet "sikit" tapi kalau tempat yg dia suka tu hmmm.... banyak la yg diorder nya. Selalunya lps kita org dah order baru la ayah order dia nyer sebab dia nak lain dr kita org - nak yg spesel la kononnya. Last2 dpt kat kita org gak hahaha.... Lepas tu ayah nye unofficial job jd tong sampah @ Majlis Perbandaran - tukang perabih mana2 makanan yg tak abih. Jawatan tu skang ni aku rasa dipangku oleh Uki n Idek. Mak lak cepat gabra, dia order apa yg dia nak tp nanti bila tgk kitaorg nye macam sedap nanti kena tukar dgn dia nya lak. Paksa rela tukar, mak nye pasal. Nasib baik la kita suma ni tekak al buaya.... huhuhu..... Tak sabar rasanya nak balik Malaysia, nak2 Penang, walaupun tu tempat asal org yg aku plg benci dlm dunia skang ni, tak dpt nak dinafikan Penang memang syurga makanan next to KL. Hmmm... gemok la aku balik ni nanti....