Volte Face

He was in a bad mood today... He came back at 230am last nite so he was groggy when Izz woke him up for breakfast. Did not talk much at the table. We only co-exist in the same house and our relationship has been reduced to a landlord and tenant cum maid. Told him need to repair my camera and do some grocery shopping. He said he need to go back to sleep and said we'll go out at 10 something. That's about it, 1 sentence from each of us. We went out at 1030am to Hyperdome Tuggeranong. First stop - K Mart. Izz wanted to go to the toys aisle. Told him to stay there and wait till we come and get him. Went to the electrical department. We could repair the camera but need to pay some service charge. He gave me a sullen look. As if I purposely ruined the camera just to spite him... It's always been like that between us regarding money. We have a parent/child relationship when it comes to money. Since he brings home a bigger slice of the dough he must always have the final say on how we spend his money. If I want to buy anything, even if it's for us/house/family, I have to ask the money from him, justify the purchase and maybe then he will give me the money (after a long lecture bla..bla..bla..) So most of the time I just use my own money, saves me the time and unsolicited advices. Went to look for Izz while he work things out with the salesperson. Izz was showing me the stuffs that he likes. I made a mental note on what to buy him for his birthday. Rosh came and asked if we're done looking. Izz asked if he could get a Hot Wheel. Aish was crying. I was pushing the stroller out of the aisle when suddenly I heard "Stupid good for nothing kid!" and Izz banged into me and fell on the floor. He bawled and clung on to me. I asked Rosh why did he push Izz until he fell to the floor? He said Izz was rude to him and pushed his hand away when he didn't want to buy Izz what he wants. Then he keeps on fuming and took the stroller away from me. I just couldn't believe it! He lost his temper in public and think it's ok to push my son to the ground because he was rude?!! That's it! The love is gone baby! That was the final straw! I'm free! I'm not in conflict anymore... I tried to console Izz and keep my composure. I was so mad I could feel my cheeks burning. Ugh!!! #*@% him... Need to cleanse all this bad aura off me and my kids. At least I'm at peace now. I now know where my heart stands and it's easier for me to carry out all my plans, devious or not. By the way, all my claws are unsheathed now....